"You know how people buy drinks for girls in bars? Why can’t people do that in book stores? Like if I’m looking at a novel in Barnes and Noble and some person walks up to me and strikes up a conversation and offers to buy the book for me there is a lot better chance of that working out in their favor"
Today I dreamt that all my teeth were falling out. I’ve never had that dream before. It was pretty horrifying.
I’ve noticed that you are always on my mind. I mean constantly. I can tone out my thoughts of you from time to time, but I’ve noticed that I’m never paying full attention to any of my surroundings. Then when I slow down, and get alone, you’re all I think about. It took me forever to pack today because you kept distracting me, and you aren’t even around. Sometimes it hurts, but mostly I’m daydreaming about you. I never thought a person could touch me that way, but I am so glad you are the one that can. I miss you terribly, how lucky am I that I have something so amazing to miss this much? The next four months are going to be rough, and they are probably only the beginning, but knowing what I’m waiting for just motivates me to fight harder. I know that we can make it through this, there is not a doubt in my mind. How could I ever let you go? I have felt so empty the last 25 days, but one thought of your eyes, or your laugh, or smile, or your hand in mine, and from across the country, you still make me weak in the knees. My heart feels the distance, but not as much as it feels the same way it does when it’s next to yours. I’m still high off your kiss, and it’s been 25 days. I have heard your voice three times. I read your letters and simply seeing your thoughts on paper fills me with the best kind of joy. I still can’t believe how lucky I am to have you. I did not think I could ever let someone in so easily. “I fell in love the way you fall asleep- slowly, then all at once.”
Playing for keeps,
Here it is again. I’m drowning in you. You take over every part of me. Its different this time though. I just haven’t figured out if it’s better or worse yet.
I keep thinking I know.
And then something happens, and then I’m sitting here like, “I don’t have a fucking clue.”
I’m broken. And I’m trying to put myself back together, but it’s harder than I expected it to be. But I’m getting there. One day at a time. You just wait and see.
You are looking for something that cannot be found, and the longer you keep trying to find it, the longer it will take for you to have it.
It can’t be found because it decides when it can be seen. Its everywhere. All around you. And I know you can feel it. But when the time is right, you will see it.
Because, you see, it isn’t something that hides in corners and tries to trick you time and time again. Its something that has to find you. And the longer you wander around, trying to find it, the harder it is for it to find you. But if you would stay still, breathe, and focus on the things that are in plain sight, then it will find you, and it will reveal itself to you.
“A waiting person is a patient person. The word patience means the willingness to stay where we are and live the situation out to the full in the belief that something hidden there will manifest itself to us.”
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